i’ve been living my loneliness for a long time

i’ve been living my loneliness for a long time
trying to get you out of my this so-called life
but after all this time
I can’t help myself from crying

you’re once was a dream that came true,
an illusion that turned to reality.
but all of a sudden, things turned differently
the way they used to be
untill that time when I had no choice but to let you go

you’re the reason behind my sleepless nights
you keep me up all the time please don’t hurt me anymore,
please stop lying!
cause i can’t help myself from crying

all the pain all the sadness that bound inside of my heart
all the memories are still preserve in my mind
i miss you so much, I bet you know
coz i can’t hide the fact that i’m still in love with you
yet, I just can’t help myself from crying

my life will never be the same again
now that you’re gone
i’ll be trapped in this loneliness forever
unless a MAN like you will bloom into my life
nevertheless, I still can’t help myself from crying

I thought this was a letter I would never have to write,
I hoped my tongue was something I could bite.
I’ve realized its just something I cannot do,
Here are my feelings, just a few.
First, I’m still so In Love with you,
But the truth is, our love was so very confused!
after all this time,You told me the same, then left me alone,what a crime!
Time has passed, but everyday you were on my mind,
The pain of losing you is still fresh in my brain,
even after almost 5 years, everyday my heart feels the pain.
Will we ever be together again, i say as I sob and mope
as each day passes, I lose a little more hope.
I’ll always LOVE you Mr Hoodlum , please hold these words up.
Don’t hate me for this, this is what pain is making me do.
My heart is broken into so many pieces,
Do I still have a place in your heart? Hell no, you just letting me GO
and for now I just can’t help myself from crying over you.